Well, I finally did it. I called my older sibling who has been DFed for many, many years.
I asked for advice on how best to do it here:
http://www.jehovahs-witness.com/9/133340/1.ashx
And all the advice I received was really helpful.
The timing really sucked. My sibling was just sitting down to dinner in a restaurant w/friends. But we talked for a few minutes. I had rehearsed all these clever ways of "protecting" myself in the first few sentences, since I was paranoid about my sibling maybe "outing" me out of spite or something stupid like that. But when I actually made the call, I just blurted it all out and let the chips fall where they may. IT WAS WONDERFUL!! Thank you to everyone who told me to just do it. Keep it sincere. Keep it simple. We were on the "same page" within 60 seconds.
My sibling welcomed me back with open arms in spite of my needing to maintain the ridiculous "shunning charade" for the forseeable future. It was kind of a modified Return of the Prodigal moment. I bawled my eyes out and said how sorry I was for throwing away so many years. Anyway, I'm sure there are many rocky roads ahead of me in trying to wake my family, but this particular portion of the journey felt SO GOOD. I just wish I had called sooner. At least we're both still alive.
Open Mind